One past Sunday our worship team was practicing before church, and as I was listening to the songs, a definite theme emerged—God is good. Well, we know that, but do we believe it? The team was singing “King of My Heart” in a medley with “Good, Good Father,” and finishing with that old chorus, “God is so Good.”
So what was the point our worship leader was trying to make?
My heart was very heavy, as I was thinking about a young pastor friend who had just undergone open-heart surgery at the age of 31 and was struggling with pneumonia, my uncle’s death on Friday morning, a congregation member who had just lost a nephew to cancer, another member whose husband was just diagnosed with end stage cancer, a young father having trouble with a teenage son . . . and the list goes on.
Well, we know that God’s goodness is dependable—we can count on it, but that Sunday morning my heart just wasn’t buying it. There’s that old disconnect between the head and the heart. So I told myself what I would tell one of my peeps: “Act as if.” Act as if I believe that God really, truly IS good. And then I began the mental rehearsing of my sermon on the lectionary reading from Matthew 16:13-20 when Jesus asks his guys who the people are saying that he [Jesus] is. Good old impetuous Peter gets it right, and then the whole point of this story: what do we DO with this knowledge? This knowing who God is?
That takes us to the second scripture for Sunday—Romans 12:1-8. Be transformed. Don’t pattern your heartbeats on the world’s rhythms. Give. Stop. Continue.
Give myself completely to God (be transformed).
Stop acting like the world.
Continue being transformed.
It is a journey.
It was a good message for this pastor to hear once again on a Sunday morning. My choice is to know that even when things look very sad, very difficult, impossible to see the bright side, I choose to believe that God IS good. All the time. And that because God loves me, God’s goodness will ultimately overpower everything that threatens to make my heart skip a beat. He is the King of MY Heart.